night owl
Good morning! Check the date. I hope everyone is having a fantastic day.
I used to be a proud night owl. Being a night owl, I usually don't get to experience the day at all. However, something decided to rewire in my brain to change that.
I had a friend who suddenly decided to reach out to me after 3 years. It certainly was a pleasant surprise, and we started catching up for days on end. We had grown up to be such high-achieving people, developed new relationships, and lived vastly different lives from our agonizing pasts. It was 4am on my end. We were time zones apart, and this was the only time when we would have an extended period of time to really talk. But every day we talked for this brief period of time, they always asked, "Are you sure staying up this late is healthy? You should really go to sleep earlier."
Hearing them say that hit me back to the times my parents often scolded me for sleeping so late every night.
Ironically enough, the reality was that I never actually enjoyed staying up. It was merely a form of sleep procrastination as I really just enjoyed the peace, quiet, and freedom that came with the late night hours.
I used to believe that this quiet nighttime would allow for more time to focus on work because of previous attempts to sleep and wake up early (which definitely worked!!!!! :skull:).
I wanted to try again. With the power of melatonin, I forced myself to sleep no later than 2am every night, and it seems to be paying off very slightly. Whether or not my mind is clear during the day, at the very least, I'm not waking up at sunset.
I may not be getting everything done, but at the very least, I feel happier and less lonely at night. I feel healthier.
I'll update you to see how this goes in the future.